Hi. it's me again. It has been a while, hasn't it. Over the years this place became deserted. Mainly because my tech projects are now hosted at forum.370.network. That left me with this blog for more... personal stuff. As you may notice, this page has been changed. I couldn't even find the source to my original Hugo page, so I just yolo'd it.
Anyways, it's 2026. Last time I wrote here I wrote about being 20. Now I'm 22. At that time I was relatively happy 1st year undergrad student. And I was naive. I thought university will be smooth-sailing. I was wrong.
Now it's 2026, I almost got kicked out once and now I failed so many classes that I will have to attend one more year. That's not something unusual tho. Out of the group that started together:
That leaves me with one friend who I can talk to, who I know for more than 2 years.
The relationship with my former colleagues is also fading away, as the only time we communicate nowadays is during some special event. Last time I saw them we talked on concert in Amsterdam in 2025. We simply stopped interacting after I left.
It seems like everything is going too fast and I am left behind.
I also recently had birthday. I turned 22. I thought that by this age I will have my life together. I am still trying to find my place in this world, trying to figure out what I want to do with my life, and trying to find people who understand me. I am not sure if I will find it. I am not sure if I will be able to find it. But I guess I will keep trying.
Also I'd like to thank everyone who remembered my birthday and sent me wishes. I might've brushed it off, but it really really means a lot to me, and even now I remember each and every one of those wishes and it makes me smile. So thank you, from the bottom of my heart.
Also Valentines day is coming up. I don't have anyone to spend it with, but I guess I will just spend it with myself. Maybe I'll buy myself some chocolates or something. I don't know. But I guess it's better than being alone on Valentine's day, right? :D
Anyways, that's my life update. I hope you are doing well, and if you are reading this, thank you for taking the time to read my thoughts. It means a lot to me. I will try to update this blog more often, but no big promises. Life is unpredictable, and sometimes it's hard to find the motivation to write.
p.s I highly recommend you to listen to song "spill" by acloudysky. You may understand what's up with the title of this post.